Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Teacher, Mother, Secret Lover

No TV and no orange soda make Cardine something something.

Sometimes I put too much in my life. It goes through phases. This stretch of too much has been pretty long. Even though I usually don't feel like being overly social, I have learned to be social. My dad said once that when I was little, they thought there was something wrong with me because I really wouldn't talk to people at all. I remember being afraid of people. A bit of that shyness has carried over into my adulthood. I still feel a little awkward approaching people, but I've forced myself to do it for so long, that sometimes I forget that I hate it. But I hate being afraid of things more, hence the scuba classes, the bass guitar performances, etc. I like to conquer my fears, or at least get so that I don't feel so uncomfortable doing things that scare me.

But sometimes I need a break from doing things that I fear and really, from being around a lot of people. I confess that I love to watch movies and/or television. It really takes no effort to do it. It is one of the most relaxing things to me. I love to lie in bed snuggled up in my sheets and blankets and just let go. And if nobody is around, I don't have to worry about crying, being embarrassingly scared, or openly enjoying a crappy action/adventure movie. Lately I've been enjoying the fruits of hulu.com (thanks, Flaur and Mack!). I can scroll through and pick from a huge list of whatever they have. Since I've pretty much abandoned conventional television and started watching everything online, I've become dependent on my ability to watch things when I want. It's like Tivo or a DVR without having one. I can't remember the last time I watched something on real TV. I don't even think my TV is programmed totally with the channels right now.

So, that is one of my guilty pleasures. It's probably only better if there's someone to snuggle with while I watch a movie, but by myself suffices, as well. Do you have a guilty pleasure?


Anonymous said...

You're welcome Cardine! We too love hulu and watch it every night.


Sean said...


You are anti social?!?!?!?!

Wow, I feel like I never knew you at all. Oh, wait, I knew that. I remember now. But hey, we love you even if you don't really want to hang out with us. (but then that is probably because we aren't in the ol' cedar any more)

julie said...

Sometimes I think it WOULD be nicer to have someone to snuggle with while watching a movie or tv, but then I think it's nice to be the one who gets to pick what's being viewed without worrying if that person likes it too. Or having to view something I don't really want to watch, like NASCAR.

Cardine said...

Flaur - Did you see Dr. Horrible's Sing-Along Blog? I thought that was great.

Sean - It really goes through phases. I am almost always in the mood for volleyball, though. Come play sometime. ...when you're in town.

Julie - Good point. And I'm not sure too many guys would be thrilled to watch "Persuasion" whenever I feel like it.

dub said...

My guilty pleasure is a lot like yours. (Is it in our genes?) Sometimes the sweetest thing in the world to me is just retreating from everyone for a few hours and watching a movie or reading a good book. It's heaven!

tearese said...

I think that is why I like you.

And watching a show with someone else can (sometimes) be highly overrated!

banana said...

So, what is the title referring to?

Cardine said...

It's referring to television. It comes from a Simpsons episode. The Halloween one with "The Shinning."